It got to the point where I’d photoshop a report card so I could avoid disappointing others and fake success.
Gaming allowed all of this. It allowed me to keep up this lie and avoid thinking about it. Gaming just let’s me avoid feeling bad and often a motivation for lying would be having more game time. It was a vicious cycle that just built upon negative things and caused even more negative things. 6-14 hours a day of game time at a time.
Here’s how I turned my situation around, and became a responsible person.
So, the day has come. Day 90 of 90 days of a personal gaming detox. What do I have to say? Well for starters, it has been a tough ride. I grew up with a computer in my room, which turned into my best friend. Where real people were complicated, my computer would always be there to serve me. But in the long run, I began to serve it.
In high school, I had downloaded but never gotten to try out Steam. I re-downloaded Steam and played Team Fortress 2 (TF2) a multiplayer game. I became more reclusive, I stopped eating breakfast and overeating dinner. I still attended classes, but I didn’t complete any assignments on time.
When my mother tried to Facetime me, I was loud, rude, tried to get off the phone, and even blamed her for my lack of productivity. I was incredibly depressed and gained weight as well. By the time I realized how far I had fallen, there were only three weeks of classes left. Today I’m a freshman in college. I’m from a city in the northeast, and I’m a recovering video game addict. This is my story.
My parents are the greatest people I could wish for. But instead of spending quality time with them I did spend my time behind a screen leveling up my character in a MMORPG game and obtaining the best gear that was available in the game.
I was also a socially awkward person when it came to communicating. I was a terrible communicator. Really bad. Like extremely-nervously-terribly bad. Isolating myself gave me no opportunity to improve it.
At the beginning of the year 2016 I decided it was a good time to quit playing games and focusing on my goals. Here’s how my journey has been.
I am 24 years old and a Sergeant in the US Army. I’m the guy who thought it would be a good idea to go on patrols and try to find people to shoot at me, so that I can shoot back at them – like Call of Duty in real life.
But life hasn’t always been this way and for much of my life, I was a gamer who spent more 10,000 hours trying to build my online characters. I even stopped attending classes in college to keep playing.